Vent sesh

I'm not exactly sad or anything but I'm feeling empty. Not the kind of empty when you skip a meal or anything. I don't know what to feel. I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I'm not mad, I'm not anything. Am I just over exaggerating? I hate just going with the flow. I have a lot of things on my mind and I really can't tell anyone anything. Not even my best friends. They wouldn't understand. I wish I would meet that one person who'd just understand and relate.. But I guess I haven't yet. There's this guy... we texted for one night but then we suddenly stopped. He's honestly different from the others and I really hate that people say no he's not and etc, it's like "Bitch, that's your opinion and I could care less". I never met a guy like him. Since freshmen year, I guess I could say I had a baby crush on him. I don't like him or I'm not obsessed w/ him because I barley know him. I talk about him a lot but that's because he means something to me. At school when I walk by and see him, he doesn't know or see me, but it makes my day. It helps me through the day. I know to some people I may sound like a creeper but I'm at the point where I really don't care anymore. I have a little harmless crush, what's so wrong about that? And it's getting to me that he doesn't text me anymore. That could be why I'm sad/empty but I don't exactly know. Oh and one more thing.. Girl I'm so tired of you posting that your family is rich and then crying that your poor and then telling me your rich. Please don't post how much money you spent on Facebook or tumblr or anything. No one cares. Honestly no one does. If you're trying to prove the point that your rich, then stop complaining that your poor or that you don't have a place to live or something. I thought you weren't like that but I guess I was wrong. I need a break from ya and you just need to stop being a hoe.. Sorry to be so mean but you are making me go on fire. You crazy psychopathic dramatic little shit. I know one day I'll forget and remain best friends with you but somethings about you just really piss me off and I'm sure it pisses other people off too...cus I've heard..Some stuff. But anyways. Back to the boy. I just wish he'd talk to me..