Last post of 2010?

Maybe.

I'd just like to thank my family, all my best friends, and everyone else.
But just saying, people who deserve friends, have friends. So if you're complaining "Oh I'm losing all my friends" Just know that there's a reason to that. And I'm not directing this to any specific person.
If you love someone you want them to be happy right? That's pretty much bull shit to me now.

Am I a generally shy person?
Yeah I actually am sometimes. I can't open up to someone I just met or I can't scream and be myself in front of a stranger. Some people expect way too much from people. Everyone's only human.. Give it a rest. But of course in front of my best friends I'm different. They stayed there with me when I was a bitch, when I was sad, or depressed. The know the real me. So do I really need to continue?

And listen to yourself before you say anything because sometimes you sound so dumb. Is it because your english is bad or it comes out the wrong way? Should I care? Do you DESERVE for me to stand in your point of view? And that's another thing, when people say "stand in my shoes" or etc. Why should you? But then again, I'm the only one so far that doesn't "hate" you. Because again. Happiness you bring to one person.

Fights? Aren't stupid. They form a real friendship.

2011 doesn't mean we're leaving anything, anyone behind or any of that bull shit. 2011 you'll be a better person? 2011 you'll have 3092409 resolutions that you won't live up to? I stopped making resolutions or many because I know that's something I'm only saying. I'm a hypocrite, I admit it. 2011, let's try to make this year different and better than 2010..Goodbye for now.

Maybe I lied...

I'm currently at my best friend sunny's house so I obviously I can't take any pictures but I'd rather be at here than anywhere else. I miss my mom though.. I don't remember when I started getting homesick when I went out. I use to be so glad I got out of the house but now... I just constantly think of my mom when I'm away. It just shows how much I need her and love her.

I'll post pictures of my room as soon as I return home. I'm ready for a fun filled weekend with my best friend Sunny Jeon

before 2010 ends..

I wanted to show a bit of my new room

Everytime I think about you, I have to remind myself that if you wanted to talk to me, you would.

And that is exactly how I feel. I'm not playing hard to get or anything. The reason I don't text/aim you first is because when you talk to me first I feel good..I feel that you actually want to talk to me and I feel that I'm not annoying you. I can't explain how I feel about you. It's not infatuation, I know for a fact. I simply like you. Every morning I wake up to a smile because I think to myself, today could be the day you finally decide to text me. You could bring smiles to my world with just a simple text.....

Macbook Pro

I got this as a christmas gift and I just wanted to let you know that it is the greatest laptop/computer you could possibly have. I love my mac and I'm so glad I choose it. I got the 13in because I personally like smaller laptops. They're easier to carry and less expensive! I got mine for 1200 on black friday w a hundred dollar discount. So basically I got my mac with no tax!

Vent sesh

I'm not exactly sad or anything but I'm feeling empty. Not the kind of empty when you skip a meal or anything. I don't know what to feel. I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I'm not mad, I'm not anything. Am I just over exaggerating? I hate just going with the flow. I have a lot of things on my mind and I really can't tell anyone anything. Not even my best friends. They wouldn't understand. I wish I would meet that one person who'd just understand and relate.. But I guess I haven't yet. There's this guy... we texted for one night but then we suddenly stopped. He's honestly different from the others and I really hate that people say no he's not and etc, it's like "Bitch, that's your opinion and I could care less". I never met a guy like him. Since freshmen year, I guess I could say I had a baby crush on him. I don't like him or I'm not obsessed w/ him because I barley know him. I talk about him a lot but that's because he means something to me. At school when I walk by and see him, he doesn't know or see me, but it makes my day. It helps me through the day. I know to some people I may sound like a creeper but I'm at the point where I really don't care anymore. I have a little harmless crush, what's so wrong about that? And it's getting to me that he doesn't text me anymore. That could be why I'm sad/empty but I don't exactly know. Oh and one more thing.. Girl I'm so tired of you posting that your family is rich and then crying that your poor and then telling me your rich. Please don't post how much money you spent on Facebook or tumblr or anything. No one cares. Honestly no one does. If you're trying to prove the point that your rich, then stop complaining that your poor or that you don't have a place to live or something. I thought you weren't like that but I guess I was wrong. I need a break from ya and you just need to stop being a hoe.. Sorry to be so mean but you are making me go on fire. You crazy psychopathic dramatic little shit. I know one day I'll forget and remain best friends with you but somethings about you just really piss me off and I'm sure it pisses other people off too...cus I've heard..Some stuff. But anyways. Back to the boy. I just wish he'd talk to me..

Gingerbread Houses

Today I went to church and it was an amazing experience. I went to church as a kid but I stopped for some reason. I learned a lot, meet new people, and I made a gingerbread house for the first time. It wasn't as easy as I thought.. We got divided into teams and I was with Mary, Alphina, Helen, and a few boys. So basically we got hersey kisses, black and white chocolate, red licorice, and etc and we just had to make a gingerbread house w/ all those supplies. But the point was we had to use everything. We started out great and tried to build a "high tec" house but we failed.. These pictures of gingerbread houses aren't my groups because ours had an earth quake and we ended up just eating it. One of the groups had a really nice and neat gingerbread house and that is picture 1 and 2. I think my group could've won...If our gingerbread house didn't breakdown..ours was actually pretty good! Good Job to everyone :o)

Merry christmas

I'm still deciding whether I should let people know about this blog or not... But Merry Christmas to everyone. My sister did my nails and I asked for something "christmas-iee". It turned out great and I loved it. It's 2:04 right now and I can't sleep. Is it because of him? Tomorrow I'm going to church with Mary and I'm excited. I'm a bit nervous though.. But I believe I'll have fun.

inspiration

Some people amaze me. It amazes me how some people could be so perfect... How they could keep up a 4.0 or higher with all honors and AP classes. How they could still have a social life and be in a sport or a dance team. Those people are the people I look up to and those are the people who I want to be like one day.